Turns out that SOMETIMES when you blog about having surgery for thyroid cancer, and then take a TINY 3-month updating hiatus, people get the wrong idea.
Here’s what happened:
I had my thyroid removed a couple of months ago. It was a difficult surgery because said thyroid was severely damaged by an autoimmune disease called Hashimoto’s. Hashimoto
fucked up my thyroid something fierce left a significant amount of scar tissue for the surgeon to navigate, but the surgery went well.
It went so well, in fact, that the surgeon told us that he hadn’t found any indication of cancer at all.
completely mind-fucked somewhat conflicted.
The post-op was worse than I’d anticipated, entailing too much coming out of one end, and not enough coming out of the other.
Even discounting my penchant for melodrama, it sucked.
My scar is less conspicuous than I’d expected.
About an inch across, and the width of a scalpel, it sits just above the notch between my collar bones. It is the most petite thyroidectomy scar I’ve seen since I started noticing these things.
Some days I look in the mirror and it is colossal.
I think, I am marked by this experience, inside and out.
Other days the scar is a thing of minor consequence, something to rub sunscreen on before heading out the door in the morning.
Both insignificant and incommensurate.
Approximately 45% of people will be diagnosed with some form of cancer.
I am fortunate.
When it finally came back, the pathology report indicated a carcinoma so small as to be referred to by the surgeon as, “The carcinoma we wish we’d never known about”.
My hormones are up and down like a seesaw.
“These things take time,” the endocrinologists say.
Did I have an organ removed unnecessarily?
I don’t know.
I can’t know–not really.
But I try not to second guess the surgery too much, because down that road lies only misery and hair pulling and homicide. Given the information I had at the time, I would make the same choice again.
“Consider yourself cured,” said the surgeon.
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